Low IQ

Fired, for now.

Fuck you, seriously.

Ps, whoever continues persisting that gina has a hickey is indeed suffering from a major brain damage cause to me, if someone denies over something that he/she didn't do after a period of time, it is either that particular person doesn't want to reveal the truth or it is simply UNTRUE. and so as if the person doesn't want to tell you, you are just not of authority to be aware of it so accept the fact then. but in this case, GINA DOESN'T HAVE A HICKEY so stop insisting that she has or endlessly questioning her for an answer because both of us thinks that it is plain annoying and childish of an individual to do so.

HAHA, sorry i'm in a fucked up mood now so please do take a step back and try not to further irritate me.

Hiding it so well

Giving me no what sign, no interest.

I can't imagine where I'll be without you with me

I need you every day more than words can say

I want you in the life, and for all the life

This night will never end

You take my hand, and I fall in love again

Fiction

This, I'll always remember.

I'd hell lots of fun today and thanks for everything gina nina lex val gwen yan and rachael. The cupcakes were lovely but the smashing of cream on each other's faces was absolutely UN-FUN. It was gina's belated birthday outing as well and it was really 'cool' celebrating it all together as a clique although bel thia and cara were missing :(

We celebrated it at the flyer with such a lovely atmosphere and had dinner at popeyes before heading over to marina square. The company was fanstastic, definitely the best ever :D kay so we sat near the steps and played a game of truth or dare. OMG shocker news but I'm gald everyone was honest and carried out our 'dares' effectively without a 'huh, i dont want' attitude. Apparently after competing with lex gina and gwen over cans of beer (those huge cans) wha i felt warm, very warm.

So we stayed at the open field till midnight before heading home and oh yes, we missed out on baybeats cause it was so fucking crowded. Pictures will be up soon, right after gina and gwen sends them over to me and the picture showing gwen and lex's tongue to tongue dare is definitely going to be uploaded (HAHAHA, i'm such an ass) goodnight world :D

Before I end off, Happy birthday ryan !!! <3

Seaweed seventeen

I'm finally 17.

Thanks a dozen to all who wished me on msn, friendster, text messages and phone calls. Thanks for remembering, I love you all :D

Last night, I continued with a pessimistic outlook on everything, feeling all gloomy and dejected and yes, the world seemed to have fallen in my eyes (how strange but dope it) I'm going mad for no apparent reason and I finally figured out that there's something missing in my life resulting to such a negative response. Life has been prefectly fine but ... (aye i dont know la) today is indeed my birthday, and many around me are feeling all hyped up over it while I'm certainly not but whatever it is, happy birthday to myself and god, I do have many wishes that I hope you may grant.

Baybeats later along with three quarters of the clique and sigh, I'll be leaving my mom all alone at home. I feel guilty, extremely guilty. I hate myself and at times if only I could split myself into two, I definitely would (binary fission would be ideal)

Mom's sms: you always blame me for not being around to celebrate your birthday and now you are going out with your friends. anyway have fun and don't do a wild act kay ... and so on.

After reading mom's sms ... (the feeling is undeniably guilty) and its 100% true cause I made her rush home all the way from ching chong china just to celebrate my seaweed seventeenth birthday with me and my family (haha, i kinda suck uh)

Special note to sinyee,
thanks for everything my life long buddy. especially for coming down at midnight along with a cake and my birthday present. i love you la, you never fail to make my birthday a special one and although you may have to go through endless planning and troubles taken every year, the surprises just gets brilliantly better. thanks a hell lot LLB.

omg its so late already, i better get dress before i get nagged for being the last again. goodbye world.

Quizzy quizzes

I'm bored. i love you la, silly.

1. Name something that made you frown today: uhm how miserable life is nowadays.
2. What were you doing at 0700 this morning: i was taking a shower.
3. What were you doing an hour ago: i went to have my lunch.
4. What was the last thing you said aloud: i am hungry and i still am.
5. How many different things did you drink today: not many. just plain water and bubble tea.
6. What was the last thing you bought: er food ?
7. What color is your room: sadly, its yellow and i seriously need a change. dull colours please.
8. What is the weather going to be like tomorrow: it is going to rain in the morning and the sun will be out by late afternoon. eh its my birthday so the least god could so is to bless the intolerable weather conditions and make it suitable for baybeats, basket.
9. What is your favourite colour: dull colours, black white ?
10. Vanilla or chocolate: vanilla. i totally hate chocolate(s), damn it.
11. What are you excited about: haha nothing excites me nowadays.
12. Are you random: YES, very random.
13. Do you laugh a lot: seldom but i laugh quite a lot in school.
14. Do you have plans tomorrow: yeah and hopefully everything goes well.
15. Are you ticklish: quite la, but i prefer tickling nina, naughty ah.
16. Are you typically a jealous person: depending on the matter.
17. Who's the 1st person on your missed calls list: regina ng xiao xiao !!
18. What's the 5th text in your inbox and from who: nina, and that msg kinda freaked me out a lil.
19. Do you chew on straws: used to but now, seldom la (social graces sia, haha bullshit)
20. What is the next concert/gig you're going to: baybeats la.
21. What's the biggest disappointment to you lately: nobody cares about me, haha.
22. What were you doing at midnight last night: i was on the phone, as usual.
23. Are you a heavy sleeper: er i think so.
24. When was the last time you said I love you to a friend: 26 aug, my bestfriend's birthday :D
25. What are you listening to: nicky lachey's fall in love.
26. Do you currently have feelings for someone: er haha, may be ?
27. Where do you keep your money: in my room, somewhere along ... eh wanna rob me right.
28. Where would you be preferred to kiss: hahaha ...
29. What instant messaging system do you use: msn live messenger.
30. Is there anyone that doesn't like you because of something you didn't even do: guess so, it is difficult to sustain one's self away from enemies.
31. Do you miss someone: yes, quite la :D
32. Who was the last person you took a picture with: uhm, gina baby :D

Just another day

Since no one is attending school tmr, its stay home friday for me.

I'm don't know why but I am just not looking forward to tmr. And, I seriously need to stop feeling so negative about everything. STOP IT BITCH.

bio was manageable until transpiration and sexual reproduction came into the picture, and i left the entire sexual reproduction question out cause who knows what a man has (oh yes, thats the reason why god created biology) kay, i know its bloody sarcastic but whatever. bio tech wasn't any better and omg ecology, such goners but whatever i still have to thank my general knowledge sincerely for everything i've written down today cause if it weren't for it, i may have left the entire paper blank. love you GK, totally !!!

The end

F9 for all subjects, seriously.

At the rate I'm fooling around with my prelims, no way am I ever going to get close to scoring at least 15 points and below for L1R4. I'm screwed, fucking screwed indeed. God should really pause all activities taking place in the world and give me an extra year and this time I swear upon my useless life that I'll change. Definitely for the better but its all too late and guess what, its time to play catch up, major catch up !!!!!!!!!

kaixuan is damn cute, that silly girl wished me happy birthday today when it isn't even my birthday cause she claimed that she was too excited for it so when the clock struck 12, she quickly text me but ended up embarrassing herself. CUTE SIA :D

Originals

Happy Birthday Baby,



I've decided, F9 for SS prelims !
Didn't study, didn't bother and SS is finally boring the shit outta me.

three more days to ... and it doesn't even feel like it's arriving.
what's best, yanling and lex aren't planning to attend school, g.r.e.a.t !

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i miss my mom :( without her, life feels really empty at home !
the good news is, she's coming back tonight, all the way from ching chong china and sadly i don't even have the time to surprise her at the airport along with sis and her bf, damn you prelims, seriously. just go away !!!

Stay, won't you

What a hectic life :(

Killer prelims, unprepared !!!

A trip down

I fucking love today and it must have been the company that somehow made the difference. kay, so violence very much started off the day for me - with the sudden attacks coming from behind, marking the arrival of gina. uhm buddy, the constant violent treatment has got to stop, as of now. Although the resurfacing of bruises and the loss of studs has indeed been 'greatly missed' but its only day one so relax panda.

So while we were on our way to KK hospital, gina continued with her '3 month-no-talk' updates and its shocking cause till now I'm still not over the matter (wth, my heart nearly sank) its just strange coming from her, totally scare the hell outta me.

In short, we managed to conquer the whole of novena within 4 hours, and we bought ugly school shoes from cotton on (by the way, its similar) she just loves being me, I knew it (haha) basically we just caught up with each others' life and the constant declarations, 'i miss you and ...' lines. What top priority and all coming from gina, such lies (kay la I believe you) So we ended off the day walking all the way from united square over to novena church to catch a bus back and on the way, we were disgustingly laughing at each other's 'so-no-funny' jokes.

The quarrel

I haven't been speaking to my dad for days (upon reaching a dozen) and I guess It must have been over the issue - 'disappointment' which led to the constant back-to-back 'silence in the air' treatment. Shocker news - my dad just mailed a cheque over to me as a pre-birthday present or is it the actual birthday present that happened to arrive early ? (kay whichever)

(once again, I'm extremely lazy to continue) bye world.

Endless drama

Last night was wild, totally wack the hell outta us but I'd an awesome time over at yan's. Played truth or dare or is it truth and dare ? (kay whichever) so we practically dialed the world's number, half the time we just talked without thinking, saying things that weren't exactly true but come on, its all for the value of entertainment. So the dare was to call gina, and I had to isn't it ? Its a dare for a reason and the chance just had to arrive so perfectly well timed. Obviously, I'm elated over the fact that everything is fine now and I can't possibly deny that life's been perfectly fine without gina, of course it hasn't been. Having to uphold a best friend status has proven to be one helluv tough job but at the end of the numerous cold war periods we've had over the years, nothing just seems to be able to stand in our way (which definitely is of value to be rejoicing over)

Till now, I'm still not over the fact that, that humchee ass went to pierce her tongue (its gina people humans animals kay whatever) She said after leaving her, she started to brave up (wth right) But at least she said, she misses me ... wait, the best part was someone said 'love you miss you I wanna kiss you' (kay la, relak buddy)
Fuck you, hell yeah. Continue creating ugly scenes cause Its fucking over. If it weren't for the O's, I wouldn't have resorted to depending on you. And thats just for the sake of achieving better results. Yes may be I'm just another stella, I'm using you (hear it)
Ps, I broke my mother's flower pot last night. Can't possibly blame me, I wasn't sober enough to walk properly but at least I tried, haha.

You be the anchor

''If you wanted a song written about you, all you had to do was ask''

On hiatus (this time, for real)

Ps, should I attend school tmr ?

A spirit that soars

NDP's 2008 Theme Song (this isn't the actual mv, its just the aerial display) Go play it, watch how the Black Knights impress with their aerobatics (when two planes appear to fly right into each other) totally nerve-racking. If they were to collide with each other, they would have died straight on the spot (thats how dangerous these aerial stunts are) watch 1:10-1:50, my favourite section.

(kay, my affection for this song is growing) can't believe i used to dislike it.

Happy 21st Birthday Kalpana :D

Joyful spirit

The parade was spectacular, crowd pleasers like the Red Lion parachute team, Black Knights aerobatic jets and fireworks show totally bedazzled the crowd. Although It started to drizzle but nothing was going to spoil the celebrations. The biggest thrill for me was when four Black Knights (two on each end) simlutaneously created a giant heart in the sky with their billows of white smoke. Now I long for a pilot-boyfriend-material (find me one) As usual, Nathan Hartono was appealing to the eyes. His memerizing voice totally captured my heart (er now i long for a jazz singer-boyfriend-material as well)

(kay, i lazy to continue again)

I may bring along the inflatable air gloves to school on tues (fun what)

Buckeroo

Nina drew this on msn earlier and its annoyingly cute haha (for your info, the resemblance is disbelievingly alike) er is that such a word, kay whatever ! Goodnight world, I should take a shower soon

Carnival ride

Note to self: I shall not resort to touching the comp as often as I used to. Reason being, Its physically down and my local connection went haywire, that alone has the ability to irritate one self.

''I think there's something wrong with me. My brain can't think as efficiently as it used to'' (extracted from yan's blog)

True enough, thats exactly how I feel towards my brain as well, especially during SS classes. I used to be able to answer most of the question within a blink of an eye but now, I take as long as 2-3 mins, trying to figure the question and forcing irrelevant answers out of my brain. I'm bloody useless now, I hate myself and I hate the fact that I belong to the rejects of DPA. After all the effort and time spent on it, thinking hard to impress but ended up failing miserably. Now tell me, why is life so hard to please ?

(My nerdy side is waiting to be unleashed, hopefully the sooner the better)
Its been more than two days since I last seen HG around.

Baybeats baby

Fuck, Baybeats on Aug 29-31 :D

Bloody cool, I'm totally looking forward to it. Moreover Its on my birthday manz, cool horrrrrr (don't mind, I quite like typing in a cheena-ah-lian manner nowadays, funny a bit) First Wall-e, now Baybeats. Fucking cool la, my birthday is finally worth spending this year.

Punk, indie-pop, emo, post-rock, nabei. Making me damn excited. Pure coincidence, I was just talking to Lex about it last night and the two of us sure are excited for it. Bloody humchee clique, y'all better come especially CYL (don't last min cancel la) Its my birthday, bitches. Nina sure come, confirm come (i know she will, its me baby)

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I MISS YOU SANDRA,

AND I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY.

I DON'T KNOW WHY ITS SUCH A SUDDEN THING BUT I JUST KNOW THAT I MISS YOU SO MUCH WHICH REALLY FRIGHTENS ME.